Short and Sweet

I need to be in bed. That's ok. I need to vent, I have you! Yeah, one follower, I know, but that's how I like it. I used to have Twitter, but now everyone follows it and it's just not as personal. This is personal.

Anyways, I was just thinking, that, if I would want to change anyones life in any way, it would be a change in a person that brings out themselves, that breaks their shell, that frees them from pressure, stress, views, hardships, constraints, lies, jealousy, embarrassment, and a lack of boldness. I could just say I want to make people bolder, but even I have to work to do there. I just hate that people are so held back by all those things, and it sucks to know that when I talk to someone, I know there is so much more behind a person then what they're giving me. Argh. It truly breaks my heart to see this. I have been through it myself, and I feel practically enlightened now that I am free, care-free, and high on life. I see so many youngin's that struggle with this, and I just want to help so bad. I (unwillingly) got put on the noobster team for band camp, and though I wasn't looking forward to it in the beginning (heck, I'd practically planned half of brasses STUFF) I am so glad that I am on it now. I almost want to give a speech tomorrow explaining how much I love and look up to each and every one of them and how they remind me of myself which is sad because it's my last year but at the same time glorifying to know that they have so far to go and so much to experience in the coming years, just as I have (and I am, for one more year at least). Last night, I balled in bed listening to some orchestral music just thinking about life, how far I've come, and how far I've got to go. Unfortunately, it leant towards the how far I've come side, and it was my first "senior" moment just knowing that all of this is ending, all this freedom, immaturity, crazy good times, and just the kid inside of me. But that is one thing I will never give up, that I am a kid on the inside. No one will ever, EVER hold back the kid in me. I am an emotional, crazy, care-free, and bouncing individual that happens to be dancing right this moment, and I love it. It's one of the greatest feelings ever, and it can't be changed. When I get to heaven, God will be saying, "Hey, Kid!" as I say to many people this day. You are out there, those of you who I have described perfectly in this blog, and I can't thank you enough for being apart of my life, for being as kiddy as me, silly as me, and free as me. My smile grows wider every time you enter my life, each new soul, and even though you might be hiding behind something, you should be pleased to know that each and every person on earth has been described in this blog, just most of us are captive, and yearn for freedom. I've met so many kind, hilarious, caring, and silly kids these past two weeks and it sets my soul even freer to know that they will experience this transformation, this Chrysalis if you will, in the coming years.

I Love You. God Loves You. Stay True. Be Free.